I know I haven’t written in quite a while, and mostly because I haven’t had time. I’ve had plenty to say, though, trust me. So I’ll try to spare you and give you the Cliff’s Notes version of what’s been going on the last two months since starting on MDI (multiple daily injections).
When I came home from the beach that day, I had no idea how long I would actually take a pump break for. Usually, it would only be for the weekend… if that long. I always felt much safer using an insulin pump for reasons like temp basals and such.
But in addition to feeling safer, I felt unashamed. It’s crazy — me, the advocate for those who prefer MDI and wish to inject anywhere they want to — was suddenly the one who felt too self-conscious to dose in public. With an insulin pump, I didn’t care. No matter where it was stashed, I would pull, shake, or shimmy that bad boy out and bolus without batting an eye to see who may be staring. Now? I find myself injecting in the car before going into a restaurant… or ducking into the bathroom. In my mind, others are staring at me and judging me for taking my shot in public. I’m slowly getting out of this mindset though, and trying to move past it.
But, I’ve loved being tube-free. I went back on my pump last weekend because we were going to have pizza, which is something I have no idea how to dose for on MDI, and I wanted to be able to extend my bolus like I’ve always done. And, not wanting to waste the insulin, I stayed on the pump for 2 days before taking it off again. During which time, I constantly fumbled with where to put it and I almost ripped my site out practically every time I went to the restroom. It’s crazy how quickly I adjusted to being without an insulin pump. The freedom feels amazing.
My numbers aren’t worse on MDI as I expected either, but quite the contrary. My averages are roughly 10-15mg/dL lower than what they are on my insulin pump, to which I have been pleasantly surprised. I have no idea why there is a difference, but part of me wonders if actually injecting the insulin is better for my skin and metabolism verses an infusion.
Of course, it could be because of the awesomeness of the basal insulin that I’ve been using, Tresiba. I honestly love it. Out of all of the ones I’ve tried (Levemir, Toujeo, and Tresiba), it’s been the most steady, and as long as I bolus correctly for meals, my BG is not nearly as “swingy” as it is with other basal insulins. I don’t notice any peaks, and I can take it every 24 hours without worrying about it running out in my system.
Now, my pump warranty is up in 5 months. I’ve been on the fence about what to do — to get a new pump or simply keep going with MDI and use my current pump as a backup or if I wanted to switch over for a break or anything. Then comes the question of which pump to go with… to stay with Tandem, or go back to Animas or Minimed, or go with Accu-chek since I love their Expert and Connect system. I mean, it’s a big decision. It’s one that I have to be confident that I’ll be happy I’ve made as I’ll have that pump for another 4 years.
Either way… I’m happy and comfortable currently with my MDI treatment. It’s going well, and for the first time, I don’t feel the urgency to run and put my pump back on. It’s almost like… freedom.