So, Iâ€™m 17 weeks (+2days) along now. BabyK has been moving up a little storm in there over the past week, but today heâ€™s been quiet (Iâ€™m saying â€œheâ€ only because saying â€œHe/sheâ€ is a little weird and saying â€œItâ€ justâ€¦ well, doesnâ€™t sound right). I will have to say though, music is beginning to be his favorite thing. I can sit back and sing, listen to music or even play the piano and he responds. Pretty cool, huh?
Of course, now that I know what he feels like when he moves, I get worried when I donâ€™t feel him at his normal active time. I had to keep reminding myself Saturday and yesterday that it wasnâ€™t my work week, so I wasnâ€™t going to be sitting still at 10-11am for his little acrobatic movements to be felt. So I kept trying to make myself just sit in the quiet to feel him. Of course, it didnâ€™t always work but I tried. I started to worry when I didnâ€™t feel him this morning, but heâ€™s right back at his little pokes now.
Later this week is my endo appointment Wednesday. Itâ€™s one that Iâ€™m kinda dreading and at the same time wanting to have because, like always, Iâ€™m scared heâ€™ll fuss because of the highs (which he has never done since Iâ€™ve started seeing him â€“ itâ€™s just a phobia of mine) but I know itâ€™s something we have got to get handled and quickly and for some reason I have not been able to successfully make my own adjustments that work. My timing for pre-bolusing is changing (some needing to be 30 minutes ahead, others needing to be only 15 minutes ahead), and I can tell my noon and supper-time IC ratios or basal rates might need to be changed as well because those are the times Iâ€™m really peaking, even though Iâ€™m coming back in range later. Lots of changes!
I will have to admit though. I am still kind of upset that the last A1c wasnâ€™t lower. I know I shouldnâ€™t beat myself up about it â€“ heck, I try to encourage anyone with any A1c low or â€œhighâ€ by medical standards â€“ but when itâ€™s myself, I canâ€™t shake it. Sans pregnancy, Iâ€™d probably be okay with it, but right now Iâ€™m just not. And I need to shake it off and get over it.
I did call today to find out pricing on the 3D/4D ultrasound from my OBâ€™s office. Their office charges $200 and itâ€™s not billed through insurance, so it would be out of pocket. On one hand, I would love to have it because it will be done at 28 weeks, which will be the half-way point between the upcoming ultrasound (in 21 days! woot!!) and baby delivery and it may ease my mind about how things are going and Iâ€™ll get to see what my little one looks likeâ€¦ and weâ€™ll get to analyze the pictures like we did with my sister-in-lawâ€™s to see who the baby looks like more. On the other hand, thatâ€™s $200 that could go towards stocking up on things like diapers, wipes, baby wash, lotions, and powder. Not to mention to get the â€œfill-inâ€ things that we donâ€™t get at the baby showers. Iâ€™m torn… I mean, really. to the point of tears even (holy hormones, batman!). I rreeeealllly want to see him moving around in there and see what his face looks like, but I also know that it would be smarter to save the money for the future (hello no maternity leave allowance! â€“ one downside to working with a small business). Itâ€™s a big war between my heart and brain as to what I want and what we need. I guess if mine and Erikâ€™s side work picks up, we may reconsider it, but the way itâ€™s looking right now, I may just opt not to and save the money for those soon-to-be poopy diapers.