Fridays with a 96mg/dl for my fasting am bg check is AWESOME! I cannot tell you how happy I was to wake up to that number. And, to wake up to it at my normal time of 7:45am.
See, all of this week, I have been waking up each morning at 5:30-ish am with a bg in the 40’s. I have hit 41mg/dl more times that I’d like to say. But when you’re out of Dexcom sensors because you’re saving up money to cover them since you’re deductible hasn’t been met yet, you do what you can. I’ve been “flying solo†for more than a month now without my Dexcom, and I’m not liking it one bit. I cannot tell what my bgs are doing, and I hate it.
Just like yesterday, the only way I had a clue that I was low was that my blood pressure was lower than normal at my “female†doctor appointment. 107/60 is a tad low for me. I’m used to the 115/75 – 120/80 range. Not to mention, I was still feeling rushed from being late. So, sure enough, I pulled out my meter, endured lots of sets of eyes turning to glare at me after hearing the clicker poke me, and waited for my result. 61. Crap. Bad thing was, I had already eaten all the glucose tabs I had in my purse. Crapola again. I waited until after seeing the doctor to go get something. It never takes long there, and I figured if I started feeling bad, I’d just have to leave.
All the lows have made me feel exhausted. The blind bolus (which had me eating grapes steadily for the next 2 hours to maintain a 90-100 glucose level)… the 5am lows… the mid afternoon lows… Some days are better than others tho, so I’m not quite seeing a definite pattern enough to change basal rates yet. Or else I’m too chicken to do it. I’ve become “highophobicâ€. I don’t want to change basal rates, then go high for more than a day, and freak out. When I freak out, I get button happy and change rates again without giving myself time to adjust or even create a pattern. I’m too impatient. I’m hoping to be able to place an order for my Dexcom sensors on Monday or Tuesday. I’m willing to pay the extra to have them shipped overnight. I’ve gotta nip these lows in the butt. I’ve gotta get some sleep! But, I feel like I’m flying blind. I need to “see†if my changes are working.
Hopefully tomorrow morning will be a repeat of this morning and I can sleep in a little while. At least until 9am… that’s all I ask. And, if I can get my sensors next week, I’ll be able to make a few changes once I see a pattern again.
