See, all of this week, I have been waking up each morning at 5:30-ish am with a bg in the 40â€™s. I have hit 41mg/dl more times that Iâ€™d like to say. But when youâ€™re out of Dexcom sensors because youâ€™re saving up money to cover them since youâ€™re deductible hasnâ€™t been met yet, you do what you can. Iâ€™ve been â€œflying soloâ€ for more than a month now without my Dexcom, and Iâ€™m not liking it one bit. I cannot tell what my bgs are doing, and I hate it.
Just like yesterday, the only way I had a clue that I was low was that my blood pressure was lower than normal at my â€œfemaleâ€ doctor appointment. 107/60 is a tad low for me. Iâ€™m used to the 115/75 â€“ 120/80 range. Not to mention, I was still feeling rushed from being late. So, sure enough, I pulled out my meter, endured lots of sets of eyes turning to glare at me after hearing the clicker poke me, and waited for my result. 61. Crap. Bad thing was, I had already eaten all the glucose tabs I had in my purse. Crapola again. I waited until after seeing the doctor to go get something. It never takes long there, and I figured if I started feeling bad, Iâ€™d just have to leave.
All the lows have made me feel exhausted. The blind bolus (which had me eating grapes steadily for the next 2 hours to maintain a 90-100 glucose level)â€¦ the 5am lowsâ€¦ the mid afternoon lowsâ€¦ Some days are better than others tho, so Iâ€™m not quite seeing a definite pattern enough to change basal rates yet. Or else Iâ€™m too chicken to do it. Iâ€™ve become â€œhighophobicâ€. I donâ€™t want to change basal rates, then go high for more than a day, and freak out. When I freak out, I get button happy and change rates again without giving myself time to adjust or even create a pattern. Iâ€™m too impatient. Iâ€™m hoping to be able to place an order for my Dexcom sensors on Monday or Tuesday. Iâ€™m willing to pay the extra to have them shipped overnight. Iâ€™ve gotta nip these lows in the butt. Iâ€™ve gotta get some sleep! But, I feel like Iâ€™m flying blind. I need to â€œseeâ€ if my changes are working.
Hopefully tomorrow morning will be a repeat of this morning and I can sleep in a little while. At least until 9amâ€¦ thatâ€™s all I ask. And, if I can get my sensors next week, Iâ€™ll be able to make a few changes once I see a pattern again.