One thing that I looked forward to when I found out that I was pregnant was not just the cute 5-7 month basketball-shaped belly, but finding out what it actually feels like to have a little person inside of you swimming around. There were times as early as my 14th week that I felt little things like random pokes here or there, but nothing at all like this week.
Although I canâ€™t see or feel it from the outside yet, it is so weird to be sitting at my desk and around 10-11am, if things are quiet, this little one starts moving around. If itâ€™s not just a few pokes here and there, it feels like something soft just rolling by from one side to the next. Iâ€™ll put my hand to my bump where I felt it and I wonâ€™t feel anything for a few minutes after that. So, most of the time now if I feel it, I just sit still and let him or her move and swim as they please. And Iâ€™ll feel it off and on throughout the day, and rarely at night when I get home. I guess because Iâ€™m moving so much more than just sitting at my desk and (from what Iâ€™ve read) my moving is rocking the baby to back to sleep.
And to that, I say this:
FEELING THAT IS SOOOOO FREAKIN AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok. Just had to get that out there.
Now, for the diabetes side of things, I think Iâ€™m starting to rock between the scary lows and the irritating highs. Seriously. My CGM looked like a picture of the Rocky Mountains one day earlier this week. Some days Iâ€™m more sensitive to insulin, others Iâ€™m more sensitive to carbs. Itâ€™s kinda like the teeter-totter is starting to sway with all the other hormonal changes still going on. Of course, it could be that or the fact that Iâ€™m able to eat most anything now (except bacon.. thatâ€™s still out of the question.. I tried.) and my carb amount is starting to go from a goal to reach for meals to a restriction for meals.
In example: Lunch today. I ate a beef burrito from the local Mexican restaurant down the street. #1, in the first trimester that wouldnâ€™t have even been something I would be able to consider without getting queasy. #2, If I did try to eat it, I would not have desired much of it and probably would have had to split it between a few meals, and would have had to eat something else to meet my 30-40 gram carb goal for lunch. Now?? I walked out of the office and craved one. So, I walked down there, ordered one, and devoured it along with half a basket of those sinfully just-gotta-eat â€˜em chips they bring you to munch on before your food is served. Of course, now I am full beyond capacity and literally sick from eating the whole darn thing, and will be having to watch my bgâ€™s like a hawk this afternoon because Iâ€™m pretty sure what I prebolused will not be adequate. Iâ€™m holding steady at 65 right now, but Iâ€™m sure once all this starts digesting, Iâ€™ll be trending upward, and not nicely.
My A1c did come back and I got a call yesterday. Itâ€™s at 6.3â€¦ down from 6.7 in mid-December and 6.6 the first part of January. I did honestly expect it to be lower since both At-home A1c tests showed me in the 5â€™s AND the average per my dexcom and meter was showing in the 100-110 range for the past several weeks. But of course, I keep forgetting that it does take time and itâ€™s not going to suddenly be what you want/think it should be. The good thing is itâ€™s trending back down to where I was pre-pregnancy. Now, if I can just keep it that way.