One thing that I looked forward to when I found out that I was pregnant was not just the cute 5-7 month basketball-shaped belly, but finding out what it actually feels like to have a little person inside of you swimming around. There were times as early as my 14th week that I felt little things like random pokes here or there, but nothing at all like this week.

Although I can’t see or feel it from the outside yet, it is so weird to be sitting at my desk and around 10-11am, if things are quiet, this little one starts moving around. If it’s not just a few pokes here and there, it feels like something soft just rolling by from one side to the next. I’ll put my hand to my bump where I felt it and I won’t feel anything for a few minutes after that. So, most of the time now if I feel it, I just sit still and let him or her move and swim as they please. And I’ll feel it off and on throughout the day, and rarely at night when I get home. I guess because I’m moving so much more than just sitting at my desk and (from what I’ve read) my moving is rocking the baby to back to sleep.

And to that, I say this:

FEELING THAT IS SOOOOO FREAKIN AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok. Just had to get that out there.

Now, for the diabetes side of things, I think I’m starting to rock between the scary lows and the irritating highs. Seriously. My CGM looked like a picture of the Rocky Mountains one day earlier this week. Some days I’m more sensitive to insulin, others I’m more sensitive to carbs. It’s kinda like the teeter-totter is starting to sway with all the other hormonal changes still going on. Of course, it could be that or the fact that I’m able to eat most anything now (except bacon.. that’s still out of the question.. I tried.) and my carb amount is starting to go from a goal to reach for meals to a restriction for meals.

In example: Lunch today. I ate a beef burrito from the local Mexican restaurant down the street. #1, in the first trimester that wouldn’t have even been something I would be able to consider without getting queasy. #2, If I did try to eat it, I would not have desired much of it and probably would have had to split it between a few meals, and would have had to eat something else to meet my 30-40 gram carb goal for lunch. Now?? I walked out of the office and craved one. So, I walked down there, ordered one, and devoured it along with half a basket of those sinfully just-gotta-eat ‘em chips they bring you to munch on before your food is served. Of course, now I am full beyond capacity and literally sick from eating the whole darn thing, and will be having to watch my bg’s like a hawk this afternoon because I’m pretty sure what I prebolused will not be adequate. I’m holding steady at 65 right now, but I’m sure once all this starts digesting, I’ll be trending upward, and not nicely.

My A1c did come back and I got a call yesterday. It’s at 6.3… down from 6.7 in mid-December and 6.6 the first part of January. I did honestly expect it to be lower since both At-home A1c tests showed me in the 5’s AND the average per my dexcom and meter was showing in the 100-110 range for the past several weeks. But of course, I keep forgetting that it does take time and it’s not going to suddenly be what you want/think it should be. The good thing is it’s trending back down to where I was pre-pregnancy. Now, if I can just keep it that way.

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