Iâ€™ll have to say that this last leg of the pregnancy journey has really thrown me for a loopâ€¦ or, well, several of them.
1) I knew that with pregnancy comes swelling for about 80% of the pregnancy population. And knowing my luck, I knew Iâ€™d be smack dab in the middle of that 80%. Case in point:
My feet â€“ last night
And not only are my feet swollen, but now my hands and face. Picking up and using a pen is the weirdest feeling I have ever felt because I feel like Iâ€™m wearing snow gloves and trying to hold on to a pen. The last time I was able to remove my engagement ring, I didnâ€™t even attempt to put it back on because it just wonâ€™t go.
Even my face is swollen. I hadnâ€™t realized how bad until I skyped with a friend last night after it had been a few months and she told me I didnâ€™t look like myself. Which confused me because I thought, â€œwhy not? itâ€™s just my feet and hands that are swollenâ€¦â€ but then I looked back at some pictures from before the swelling started. And I have to admit. I look quiteâ€¦ puffy. Iâ€™m hoping to hear back today or tomorrow from all the blood work and 24hr urine collection from the OBâ€™s office. Hoping and praying that itâ€™s good news and all of the swelling is normal, and not a sign of pre-eclampsia or kidney problems.
I guess I didnâ€™t realize just how much can change in your body when youâ€™re pregnant, and even more so depending on what stage of pregnancy youâ€™re in, which leads me to my second point of loopy confusion.
2) When I was preparing for pregnancy, I lived in this dream world that I wanted to get things under control for a year, minimum, not only to make me healthier to be able to carry a child, but so that I would have more of a clue of what goes on in my body and be prepared to handle things and hopefully make pregnancy easier. Boy was I wrong. Yesâ€¦ it was good to make my body healthier, but the goal of it making a diabetic pregnancy easier? Thatâ€™s a whole other story. Because no matter how long you have been diabetic â€“ 2 years or going on 23, such as myself â€“ nothing can prepare you for diabetes + pregnancy other than it itself. Almost everything, save for eating when youâ€™re low and taking insulin when youâ€™re high, is thrown out of the window. Foods react differently throughout different trimesters, insulin doesnâ€™t work the same way month to month, week to week, day to day sometimes. Highs and lows can feel completely different to you than they did before. Itâ€™s truly not something that you can â€œprepareâ€ yourself for. You have to go with the flow. Which brings me to my point of .
Weâ€™re told that insulin resistance is a big deal in pregnancy. I know, because mine kicked in right with the third trimester. Iâ€™m now taking twice as much basal insulin and, depending on the time of day, 3-4 times as much carb insulin. But I knew to expect this. What I didnâ€™t know to expect, was that right at the end, when your body is starting to get prepared for delivery, your insulin resistance can actually slack off a bit.
Wait.. What?? you may ask!
You read that exactly right. I didnâ€™t realize what was going on until I had a hunch and tweeted and researched Google for a while, but apparently your body knows itâ€™s getting close to time and for some reason that I still donâ€™t understand enough to explain correctly here, you become less insulin resistant. Which would honestly make sense. I mean, come on girls, how many of you can track your pending visit from Aunt Flo by the change in your glucose levels due to the change in hormones?? This is true for pregnancy as well. As you get closer to the end, your hormones change yet again, which is why you tend to not be as insulin resistant, Iâ€™m assuming.
So, to get to why I even started on loop , itâ€™s because for the past two days, my blood sugars have been low to normalâ€¦ and I havenâ€™t increased my insulin as I was supposed to. It seemed that the day after the OB fussed about my blood sugars starting to get a bit out of hand and having my endo make some change suggestions, the next day, I had to reverse the increases because it seemed to be too much. And now, Iâ€™m on as much insulin as I was when I was getting the high readings that the OB fussed about, and am having to treat lows every few hoursâ€¦. sort of like a slight visit back to the first trimester again, just without the drastic drop in insulin need.
Which is why I abso-freakin-lutely looooooooooove being on an insulin pump. I have full respect and admiration for those who attempt pregnancy without one. Because without it, I honestly donâ€™t know how insane Iâ€™d be. Watching and controlling are insanely intense now, but I can imagine with shots, itâ€™s double that. Being able to make changes on the fly with an insulin pump, I think, are crucial, and I think it would just be added stress and aggravation to have to wait to make changes with shots. Not that itâ€™s impossibleâ€¦ but not something Iâ€™d make the choice to do.
3) Aaannd, as far as we know right now, if BabyK doesnâ€™t decide to come earlier or if tests donâ€™t show he needs to come earlier, I will be induced the first or second of Augustâ€¦ which makes it only 2 weeks away. Then, Iâ€™ll be in for the biggest loop of my lifeâ€¦ being a diabetic MOMMY! Which presents a whole new bag of loops, confusion, challenges and victories all in itselfâ€¦ and I canâ€™t wait to write and share mine with you guys!