Tomorrow is my next follow-up appointment for my eye thing. This time, it’s with a new doctor, one that my local JDRF’s executive director told me about. I’ve already shared emails and a phone call with his office, and he has my files (though not the images) from the other retina specialist.

20140710-105946-39586656.jpgI’m hoping to find out his opinion of what happened and what is going on, truly. It seems that my initial diagnosis of Diabetic Macular Edema is/was/may be actually Central Serous Retinopathy, which is rarely -if ever- related to diabetes at all. Which would mean my complete upset and shattered emotions would have been for naught, and I feel like and idiot. It would mean that the first retina specialist acted on a whim of assumption that because I was diabetic, what happened had to BE because I was diabetic and for no other reason. And let’s not forget the fact that upon my follow up he also failed to even read my chart before coming in and asked if I knew if I was a diabetic or not…

So, for today and tomorrow, I’m anticipating and holding on to hope. Hope that this specialist is a bit more together than my last one. Hope that the CSR didn’t impair my vision permanently by stretching the macula tissue. Hoping that maybe the spots of non-proliferative diabetic retinopathy are the same or better, not worse. Hoping that maybe I can finally get glasses now that this episode is behind me so I can read without headaches. Hoping for good news all around.

 

3 Thoughts on “Anticipation

  1. Your emotions are genuine and realistic given the information and the possibilities presented at the time. You shouldn’t “feel like an idiot” (those words keep resonating in my mind). You are completely justified in feeling what you do — the fear, the blame, the relief.

    Whatever the cause or the end-result turns out to be, there is nothing foolish about being concerned. And with that said, I am also concerned and hope everything turns out for the best.

  2. Will be thinking of you:-)

  3. Gary Cunningham on July 12, 2014 at 12:46 am said:

    hope everything is fine. Wishing you the best of luck.

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