Erik and I have started buying food more responsibly. Before, we used to go when we wanted something and would end up spending $40-$50 each trip, a few times per week. Now, we are going once every two weeks to the grocery store and stocking up on sale items (diapers, anyone???) that we may need for the future and grabbing necessary items for the week. Since doing this, I have been able to start packing my breakfasts, lunches, and snacks for the day to take to work, and have been able to save money on drive-thru places and gas to go to them.
But lately, I have been having to re-think the foods we have been stocking up on. Iâ€™m trying to incorporate more fresh fruits, whole grains, and just all-around wholesome foods. Granted, if you see us in the store, we will still have a package of something sweet and possibly a pizza in the buggie, but everything else is the good stuff â€“ better cuts of meats, bags and bags of fruits, whole grain rice instead of white rice, you know?
And yes, Iâ€™m now 5 months into this pregnancy and you may be wondering why the change now and not when we first found out. Well, since I wasnâ€™t able to eat very much in the beginning of the pregnancy, most all that I ate was the good stuff like fruits, low-carb meals, etc because it was the only thing I could hold down. Now, with hunger coming in full force, I have to control what Iâ€™m eating a little better.
Also, if any of you read my post for Diabetes Sisters this weekend, you will see my other little issue that has come up. Gastroparesis. Itâ€™s where your body has delayed absorption of food. Granted, my endocrinologist said that this is common in some pregnancies because of the hormones changing things, but I canâ€™t say that it didnâ€™t scare the sh** out of me to actually hear that word. I had some slight symptoms of it before pregnancy, but not enough or not often enough to worry about. Now, itâ€™s on my mind every single day because every day, there will be one problem meal. I can prebolus in the correct amount of time, eat my food, but it just sits there. I will feel full to the brim (almost literally) and completely bloated for 2-3 hours, blood sugar plummeting and staying low in the 40 range until all of a sudden, itâ€™s like the gate opens and everything starts absorbing, then my Dexcom starts going crazy that Iâ€™m shooting for the sky and sure enough, I will be. Iâ€™ve had this happen for breakfasts, lunches, and dinners now, and itâ€™s not fun at all. So, with his suggestion to eat and use a combo-bolus at every meal, Iâ€™m also changing up the foods to try not to have too many high-fat meals and opt for more healthier, fresh, wholesome meals to see if it will help. Granted, I know that high-fiber meals can be just as tricky for those who have GP, but Iâ€™m really just adding what should have been in my diet all along. Iâ€™m also trying to space out my meals and snacks so that Iâ€™m having no more than 30g of carb every 2 hours, instead of maybe 60g at one setting with no snacks. Will it help with the GP? I donâ€™t know, but with insulin resistance and GP now in the mix, I am willing to do anything it takes to keep the best blood sugar control I can have and this is the only way I know to do it.
I have to admit. I feel like Iâ€™m going crazy already. I knew things would have to tighten up and I would have to be stricter with a lot of things while I was pregnant, but I donâ€™t think I was fully ready for all of this. Sometimes, it gets the best of me and I have a meltdown. Others, I refuse to let myself because I feel like Iâ€™m being selfish. I mean, whatâ€™s 9 months of super-tight control if it helps your baby that will be with you for (God willing) years and years and years be healthy as possible when he or she is born? My mind is constantly fighting a battle now, it seems, and itâ€™s starting to wear me out. What keeps me going is the kicks I feel from him, all the pictures I have of BabyK from the ultrasounds, and walking in and sitting in the rocking chair in his room knowing that Iâ€™ll be holding him there soon. It keeps my d-sanity in line.
That song by Faith Hill â€“ A Baby Changes Everything? Yep, it is SO trueâ€¦ even before they get here. (And now, I have to hush because that other pregnancy symptom is starting upâ€¦ the tears! Geewillikers!!)