Iâ€™m not sure what to write today. I have lots of things going on, and diabetes has really taken a back-seat since before vacation. I wanted to take a vacation from D-management along with my vacation for relaxation with my hubs, but since getting back, Iâ€™ve had too much going on mentally to even think about diabetes. Iâ€™ve been doing my best to control it as much as I can, but I havenâ€™t been able to give 110%â€¦ more like, 50%. Just enough to get by so to speak.
Doing things like, letting a 200 stay a 200 just because I donâ€™t want to do the math. Or, correcting a 41 bg with 3 tablespoons of sugar (yes, I eat it by the tablespoon straight from the jar) and a glass of milk without going into my pump to see if I maybe need to bolus to correct a possible overcorrection just because it would take time that my mind didnâ€™t have set aside for me. Filling my cartridge all the way and going 4 days between refills/site replacements instead of 3 just because I was too lazy to look at my last 3 days worth of insulin to figure what I may need for the next three days. Or sitting in front of the TV, eating almost half of a bowl of Hersheyâ€™s Candy Cane kisses just because they were there without even giving as much thought to bolusing for them until 15-20 minutes later when I realize that all those wrappers are the evidence of my rampage that hadnâ€™t been bolused for yet.
Iâ€™ve been letting a lot slide, and I know I shouldnâ€™t. Iâ€™m hoping that once things kinda mellow out Iâ€™ll be able get refocused and â€œback in the saddleâ€ again. Iâ€™ve been so out of sorts, and itâ€™s truly thanks to some very special people in my life that Iâ€™ve been able to keep my sanity since coming home. Theyâ€™ve been my rocks to lean on. If there were a word that described what someone could be for you that would mean something more sacred than family and more valuable than true friendship, it would be what I would use to describe these people.
Thank you to all of my readers for putting up with me through this. I have a few other posts in mind, so maybe if I have time tonight, Iâ€™ll get them ready for posting this week.
So, until then, take care and yâ€™all come back now, ya hear?